you

are shit and piss, i am glitter and gold























i always think the worst before the opportunity of positivity or sanity even has a chance to reach my thoughts...





Happy Halloween♥

blah blah blah

i don't ever want you to go away....ever




























































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right

when i'm finally ready to swim away on my own and leave,
you cast your line out, then i'm hooked once again, you can call me naive...

i wonder,

if these thoughts would be considered a crime,
i've always admired you from afar, you're just so divine
maybe that's why trys with other boys always go wrong,
because fate whispered...it's been you all along?

dear udry,

The stars in your eyes are almost blinding
I know I should look away, I'm honestly trying
I act like I'm here
It's really hard to care
Fore there's a thin line between your wit, and your whining
I'm just a shadow when your shining
I look forward to putting it all behind me
Kneel before your ego
It's funny how some people have a way of making the milky-way look tiny
Somewhere between the drama and the dry heave, collapse on command, using gravity to guide me
You're so hip-hop
You're so punk rock
You're so cliche



You look the same to me
Uncomfortable in your skin
Colorless eyes and no mouth
I'm never interested
I plot my recovery, and sleep in the mold of your milk
You look the same to me
Uncomfortable in your skin
Colorless eyes and no mouth
Don't tell me there's nothing wrong
Don't tell me there's nothing wrong
You got the credit for my kill




The stars look like eyes
Judging as the gaze upon the long face you wear when it's your right to say they're wrong
You put no one above you, but they can tell you're troubled as you pick up your things and sleep alone when the day is done
You used to get in fights for fun
It's your way of getting close to someone when you don't know how to love
I feel sorry for you
Even though your fans adore you
The more you try to wiggle your way loose, the more you get stuck
You're so sex
You're so drugs
you're so rock and roll
You're so in the moment
You're so self centered
You're so sad, because you're so cliche
























i gave it a try, and all it did was make a piece of me die
I'M DONE YOU PIECE OF SHIT♥

i may have the flu,

but i still have a clue
haha
i'm super duper sick, i feel really weak, i have the chills, a fever, achy bones, and the thought of you makes me want to vomit and i'm not kidding
you only call me when you want something, and you keep calling and your very nice...until you get it
this is it, FINALLY
i can't take no more, you've drained me
atleast that's what it feels like...









BTW: i love edmundo mario castillo until the world ends
i honestly could never have anyone better than him in my life,,,do i feel a novel about him coming on? yehhh
:p
as i look back at all the supposED "best friends" i've had, mario has always been there and i'm not just saying that, because he has, since sophomore year, he was the one person i would know i could call and there would be a voice on the other end of the phone line, his problems my problems we were always there for eachother, and i love the fact that he was always there for me, he's seen me at my best and worst, and he's seen me at my weirdest and "normalest", and no matter what he's still always been there, haha we've never been in a real fight[[knocks on wood]], just stupid little tiny ones, there is not one person who knows me better than he does i don't think, in all honesty like really he is the bestest greatest friend i've ever had, and i know people say that all the time but i mean it, like i would literally choke a bitch for him, if anything were to ever happen to him i think i would lose it, he's just about the best thing that has ever happened to me, when i'm feeling down he makes me laugh, and i love everything about him and i would NEVER change one thing about him, i appreciate you more than you will ever believe! i have so much fun with him and we have so many crazy and good memories, and many more to come. iloveyou maryohhhhh && never ever forget it
>:]

STYG

i love them, they're G
and here's one of their songs that suites....


The least that you can do is wipe off your shoes before you give yourself another boost

I’ll never stoop that low because i know that this is just a game to you, you’re all for show
it’s so hard to think of anyone else, when you’re too busy thinking about yourself
you’ve mastered the art of giving up and i’ve had enough, i’m giving up on us
so i’ll cut my losses, no more being cautious, i’d rather lose it all than ever become thoughtless
it’s so hard to think about anyone else, when you’re to busy thinking about yourself
a person can only take so much and i feel like i’m loosing touch. so for your sake and everyone around us, i suggest that you back up
i can’t believe you try to cheapen every thing i have achieved
i still stand for everything that i always believed was the biggest part of me. part of me
so here we go, you keep trying to pull me back down to zero, but at the end of the day i know i fought hard for everything, so do your worst
I can take anything♥

sway oh sway,

is this the day that i finally find out,
that this whole time i've been drowning in a sea that's been 3 months in a drought
my mind in stuck in constant confusion,
i'm not sure what this means i have yet to figure out a conclusion
i'm well aware of what i need to do,
but your a sickness i have pretty close to the flu
i want you leave but i want you to stay,
please just go, but just don't go that far away
i don't wanna talk to you during the day but i wanna talk to you at night,
i wanna get along but sometimes i wanna fight
sometimes i'm sick and tired of being sick and tired,
and other times instead of the drugs it's you thats got me wired
there are moments when you make me really depressed,
and there are them times you just make me wanna get undressed
i don't know exactly what you would call what we have,
is it something special or is it up for grabs?
you mean more to me than you will ever know,
like when i'm in your presence don't you see me glow
the days i don't talk to you nothing feels right,
but when i do it's our fire i wanna reignite
i'll never know if it's a good thing or bad thing to have you stick around,
but with you here it helps me keep my feet on the ground
you have the ability to make me feel alot of things,
like butterflies in my stomach accept with you, i feel bats with wings
i am pretty much infected with you,
i think ure sticking to me like glue
but then again i'm tired of these games that you play,
they're not fun at all in actuality they're pretty gay
if you don't grab ahold of me really soon,
i'm gonna drift far from you, possibly farther than the moon
because i know just how to let you go,
i'll just disect you out and step back real slow...



♥