Skewed Vision

I cannot see what they see
Because you told me something different.
I cannot see why they tell me my eyes are so beautiful
Because all I can see is the shadows blocking the actual color you never noticed.
I cannot see why they tell me I am gorgeous
Because all I can see is the slight double chin when I turn my face.
I cannot see why they tell me you were so lucky,
Because all I can see is you leaving me.
I cannot see why they tell me I should have no problem finding a man to love me,
Because all I can see is the empty left side of the bed.
I cannot see why they tell me I am perfect
Because all I can see are the many flaws you have pointed out.
I cannot see why they want to have sex with me
Because all I can see are the reasons why you wouldn't.
I cannot see why they want to stare at me with admiration
Because all I can see are the reasons why you were no longer attracted to me.
I cannot see what they love about me
Because all I can see is why you stopped.
I cannot see anything good about me
Because all I can see is the monster you made me out to be.
I cannot see the beauty they say the see in me
Because all I can see is you looking everywhere else.

But now I can see, that you never seen any of these things
Because you never really looked at me.

Never.

Things will never go my way.
I'm always cut short.

I overextend again and again.
Just to be looked passed, or taken as a joke.



It's getting exhausting.