It's safe to say,

I'm depressed.

In this new relationship...

There are tons of things I haven't told you, and you're the only one I can tell.
A week before I gave birth me and Andrew got into a fight.
I don't exactly remember for what but a week before delivery he hit me.
9 months pregnant with my big belly running from him, he hit me on my legs and arms and I was trapped on the bed so he wouldn't break my phone.
Then he threatened to punch me in the stomach and said he hoped that I would just drink chlorine so I wouldn't have his baby.
And proceeded to talk down on me and my life and how he wished he never met me or got me pregnant.
This has been one of the ugliest relationships I've ever had.
I'm literally scared on different parts of my body from Andrew.


But he claims Mila has changed him and his heart.
He claims he will never do anything to hurt me again.


We'll see.




It's just really hard to believe when he's cheating on me during our whole relationship and continued to physically abuse me.



Mila is almost two months and it has been good, but my whole relationship has been shit so I can't really read into whether or not this is real or just an act.