i love you...BUT

you're never going to change
you're never going to trust me



i can't take the psychological and emotional abuse that you bring to me on a daily basis.
constantly having to prove myself innocent, it's not my fault for what your ex-girlfriends did to you
it's not fair you hold me responsible for what they did to you, when i've never done anything of the sort.
i can't take it. i can't take it. i can't take it.

i don't deserve to be treated like a slut girlfriend if i've never done anything to you,
BELIEVE it there is such thing as a faithful girl!
it's called LOVE!


and i can't take this shit anymore, so next time you treat me like i'm one of them,
we're done and that's forever.

how it's been

from the start you were the sweetest sin,
that i made sure i would always indulge in
whoever knew we would hit it off so well,
i finally had hope that someone would catch me if i ever fell
you filled up my ears and head with promises that are supposedly true,
i'm still here waiting wondering if they'll ever go through
i never thought in a million years you and i would ever combine,
and i look at my life now and how you're completely mine
i don't think you understand when i tell you how i feel,
you ignore my words like they're nothing when all they are is real
inhale it, inject it, let me sew you're eyes open until you see,
how the only thing i'd ever want is a world full of only you and me

i remeber the mornings waking up and kissing your face,
and turning over and allowing my body to feel your warm embrace
nothing in the world has ever felt so good,
never allowed myself to feel this way with anyone else but with you i could
everyday walking me to school then you taking the bus home,
that was some love shit and i knew you'd never rome
i would go about my day with the utter feeling of being content,
and i'd thank god everyday for this human form of a blessing that he'd sent
i was so happy knowing we were in eachother's posession,
but little did i know that this love would be an obsession

it was all fine and dandy until the moment i came home,
hearing you yell through the phone as if i'm a kid and not grown
constantly questioning whether i'm telling the truth or not,
asking me if i feel dumb or how does it feel to get caught?
always having to prove myself innocent but you'd always doubt me,
as if a girl in love didn't know here boundaries
crying turned into a hobby that was never enjoyable,
loving turned into something that was possibly destroyable

everyday's been a day of pain,
wishing for the sun when all i get is rain
i never knew love was supposed to hurt this much,
i'd do anything to feel an honest and sincere touch
i'm honest when i tell you that i tell the truth and i'm loyal,
do my best to treat you like a king and according to my heart you're royal
one day, maybe someday i just wish you won't take me or my love for granted,
i meant every single word in your head, that i implanted
what part of i love you makes you question,
if you don't want to lose me may i make a suggestion?

when your girlfriend tells you she wants this forever,
don't shoot her down cuz she can easily prove you right and make it never...

L.A.C.

when in lust, the only thing you find is complications in the mind,
while when in love, infatuation in the heart is all you find
i'm glad to say you run through my head night and day,
while i get on my knees and pray that you'll never leave astray
knowing that you're mine allows me to wake up,
i wasn't lying when i said you would always be stuck
well i'm in hopes of you wanting to just stay with me on your own,
even though the world explains that this is a love free zone,
but i promise you i'll never leave you alone
from the top of your head to the bottom of your toe,
nothing in this world will ever make me let you go
with you i'm finally able to feel,
the only thing in my life that has ever proved itself real
and that's what sets you apart from all the rest,
because you're the owner of the heart shaped object in my chest
i can feel you in the pit of my stomach in every sense of the phrase,
with every touch, feel, and kiss has my body in a craze
you've touched more than my body and reached in for my soul,
you've got the key and without it i'd never be whole
every minute with you brings me complete and utter bliss,
don't ask me how i know i just taste it when we kiss
everyday i spend with you pulls me in deeper and deeper,
i promise you you're my love's keeper
you mean the world to me and i love you,
every word above is a fact and i promise that it's true
it started out rough but each minute it gets better,
i told you if you ever doubt me just read my letter
you've got ahold on me that no one's ever had,
you've got the ability to make me happy when i'm sad
when we're away from eachother we're eager and able to fight,
but when we're in eachother's presense there's no better feeling than alright
your hand is the only one i would ever want to hold,
each day with you is new and never gets old
we found eachother all because of this thing called fate,
before you i never believed in a sould mate
all my hope was lost until you came along,
i thought there were no good guys left but i guess i was wrong
all i have to say is i love you and thats from the bottom of my heart,
and nothing in this world will be able to tear us apart
everything i've ever told you was always the truth,
so i put how i feel in writing so you can have some proof
well i'm telling you there is only one guarantee,
and thats' the fact that in my heart and mind it'll always and forever be you and me ♥

sit and think

conjure thoughts and take a drink...



time to grow up.