storm

is prerequisite to mental gain



i can honestly say that i am beyond the word confused, i'm not exactly sure how to take this whole situation, whether to take it positively or negatively, either way i end up fighting about it so it must be negative right?
hmmm, well to deal with it i'm going to spend my spare time boxing rather than smoking, finally
i feel that this is something that i'm going to stick to, because it's something that once i have a taste i all of the sudden want it 10 x's more
kinda like weed, i started smoking it and somehow it always made it's way back to me, it was something i wanted all the time, to feel that way

it's a little something like this feeling, the night i fought brianna i never felt so good, the feeling of just hitting something knowing that i hurt them, knowing that all my feelings were dripping it's way from my brain and heart to my fist and it was finally hurting someone else rather than me.
i felt so amazing, right after that i felt so damn good, ever since then i've wanted to fight
and now the opportunity has come, to get that adrenaline again, and to let everything out, and to train, and it's gonna be amazing, but yea i guess i kinda have things a little figured out for now
i'm still trying to maintain my sanity in this hell hole, but it's holding pretty well
im working my ass off in school, and i'm training

so ina about an hour, ima go running at the highschool and what not
clear my head, and get my lungs use to it
i need my lungs better though, cuz they're fucked up right now
i've been blazing every single day for a while now, fuck
atleast i'm getting my shit straight before i'm in too deep
ima do E as my grand finalE with SEM haha i love them to death
<3
i'm glad i get to go back to ihs with them
yessssssssss



&& andy ima dropp him, i'm not gonna play these little games
okay getting my hopes up while ure gonna be talking to other hynas, but your telling me you love me, ha sukkkka your no different from the rest, ure bomb though
haha


so no vatos for me, he'll find me someday
i don't mind waiting


"I will be reincarnated as Rain Harvested thought only comes after Rain Artists may talk and give it different names When they appear wet, they may feel ashamed So they don't walk but instead take the train And when that ride stops they notice the strange Sense of degeneration they've obtained While the world evolves, they stand and turn lame Storm is prerequisite to mental gain Storm is prerequisite to mental gain Philosophy's life That's simple and plain Poets play with words to keep themselves sane You do your thing while the clouds pour the Rain"