eee & aye

i love them

for eternity

hmmm well nonother than that, things have been going pretty good i guess

i mean i love my homehhhs so much, and i'm getting super close to chela, and it's nice to have a female perspective on things, but idk chela's just the coolest, but i don't wanna jYnx anything

cuz all my female 'best friends' have done more than fail.

and everything with me and cesar ceja-torres, are getting better too, we talk so much more than we did before, and he's like my big brother whom i love coming to with anything knowing that he does have my best interest at heart.

i'm just so content with things at the moment, i mean i'm getting my credits, i'm going to school, everything is slowly falling into place, even though my boxing shit isn't! which is bumming me out and making me mad at myself.

i still be blazing whenever possible, it's not something i need it's something i want

and no, i'm not addicted

ugh, now for my wonderful home life

well things started out okay, but then all hell broke loose and shit went down like crazy, like never before, then calmed down, and i'm fucking pisssed again

okay, he tells my mother this wonderful fucking story on how he deleted W.O.W for her from his computer and shit, and she's like jumping for joy and shit and praising my father, come to find out it's still on his fucking laptop, and he leaves our house from 8 or 9 p.m. to til' about 1 or 2 a.m. to play that fucking stupid ass game at my uncles house, wow mother, isn't ure husband so amazing, god ure blesssed. ohh and not to mention, last night he didn't feel like driving to my uncles house so he fucking played his game in the fucking garage. THERE IS NO DOUBLE EDGED SWORD MOTHER!

it's like me saying, "i won't smoke inside the house, but i'll do it at my friends, and smoke in the garage" and her being OKAY WITH IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

if he's stops playing that game, then i will stop smoking weed

there you fucking go