i can't feel

anything, i am completely numb
it's official, i can now deal
i took my daily pill of god knows what, and i feel fucking goood
i have no emotions, i want to cry but i can't and i love it


i can't see you, i can't see you at all, you make me want to throw up, i lost my appetite
you are now one of them, you are officially brainwashed and i'm not laughing, cuz this isn't a laughing matter, it makes me sick, this whole situation makes me fucking sick, cuz he's a fucking piece of shit


"Esther, i know i felt super bad, like i jus thought to myself while i was at work. Like i think everyone deserves a second chance. He is changing, i already feel a different vibe in our relationship. Things between him and i are gonna get better. He already has a job lined up for him. But i do thank you guys for opening the house for me. And dont worry he wont touch me, at all. I love you sooooo much, thanx mudder. "



i swear to god, this isn't you, this isn't you at all...