this and that

basically i have a frog in my throat
with this situation i cannot cope
every inch of my body wants to get up and leave you behind
viewing my life, there's no deception, i am not blind
i'm trying to achieve all that i can
but thoughts of you aren't special, they're actually pretty bland
i don't mean for my flame of love for you to be put out
but in actuality it's dryer than a desert in a drought
i'm sorry i can't lie to you anymore
i just have to take out all the buried feelings from the core
when i look into your eyes i see no love for me
you just put up with me to a tolerable degree
in all honesty i've never gave up so much to satisfy a person
but if i stay my hatred for you will worsen
you sat around and let me know the plans you had for my life
you would gather opinion on how i should be the perfect wife
the only thought that would cross my mind, was that i had one more year
but you wouldn't leave me alone, you had the will to persevere
you know that i can't stand be home
if i could, it would be the streets i would roam
but you, you see my desire to spread my wings and leave
in your eyes it's not a positive thing you would like to perceive
i can never help the fact that you've made me grow such disgust
towards you, hearing your nagging i've grown so robust
i want you to know that i am soon to be gone
to be in your precense, i've chose to be withdrawn
don't take this personal, it's not that i don't love you
i always will, it's just your something i can no longer persue
it's just that, i don't know how much more i can possibly try
to make you proud, in your eyes my rivers run dry
it's sad to know that you've given up on me
it's okay, i'll proove you wrong, therefore i do disagree
i know myself and what i'm capable of
so just as you did to me, when i'm famous it is you i will shove...






mom