i can't complain,

i did this all to myself, once again
and i didn't even ask for an enchore, it's a constant cycle of abusing eachother in every way, shape, and form. someone is bound to get hurt, while the other doesn't even care
it all seems so easy just to give in and surrender to you, cuz it's what i'm comfortable with already.
we both get something that we want out of eachother when we are done, it's routine, it's pleasure, it's comfort, it's lust, it's momentary satisfaction, it's us, it's a mess, it's a mistake...
that i make over and over and over, do i not learn?

everything is on YOUr time, when YOU want it, wherever YOU are is where i have to travel to, but when it's ME and what I want, and when I want it, it's doesn't fly with you does it?
well i can't take it, i think we've had our fare share of using eachother.
with us, nothing get's solved, nothing gets talked over, it's get's pushed aside because you are busy of course
and that's fucking stupid



so grow up, and grow a little
and maybe i'll take fucking you into consideration...
:p




it spreads throughout the depths of my body like a fire, call me a sinner when that feeling is my desire...