so.......

this is what you get when you settle, not so much for less, but for being mistreated.


a baby shouldn't be the reason for me staying with you, as much as i love you, you hurt me on a daily basis. the mental torture can only go on for so long before i lose my mind along with my self. what you call supposedly "love" should be nothing like this, it should be nothing like crying on a daily basis because of your actions or the words you said.


this is way more than what i bargained for, and not in a good way. i've been cheated by your false promises, and all i wanted was to be happy with you. it'll be good but for no more than two days before something makes you snap, and it's hard to handle. i thought maybe i could handle it, maybe i could try and cope, after all i did have hope. it's more than hard to have a constant battle with my well being just because of dear ol' feeling. it's an everyday thing, something gets you tick about me, or something i did, or someone i talked to just sets you off in all the wrong ways, and i end up being the horrible person.


when in actuality i gave up everything for you, you have no idea. before i met you i used to argue with my parents on a daily basis just because i loved being out and about, but now i'm home bound because it kept you happy and well now i'm pregnant. my motive to move out in the first place was just so i didn't have to deal with the consequences of my actions from my parents, while in the back of my mind my evil little self grinned at the fact that me moving out meant you being able to stay with me there. i did it for you and that's the truth. i just graduated, i turned down so many times to go out with my friends to lay around in a room with you, not that that was a bad thing but just it's just the thought that counts. i gave up my guy friends (not to mention they meant so much to me and YES JUST as friends) but just to keep you happy and comfortable. pregnancy wasn't my idea, it was yours, your proof from me to show you that i "wanted to get serious" and that would be the only way to prove it along with only having contact with my family. i still have friends yes, but i go out with them rarely due to me always feeling sick and carrying your child. while you on the other hand get pissed at me hanging up on you and go out and get drunk with your friends. and your excuse is i pissed you off you had no other choice. you stupid asss hold fuck face, do you not see all that i've done for you? for crying out loud i didn't talk to my family for weeks because of you!!! did i really want to no! i did it because i wanted to take a chance with this in hopes that we would make it.


when in actuality my dumb asss fucked my life up, for life.
all for what you ask?
for a guy named Leonardo Angelo Castro, or shall i say BOY who supposedly loves me.
all you do is lie lie lie through your fucking teeth.


tell me Leo, what the flying fuck did you ever give up for me? hmmmm smoking weed? going to billys?
you're the same person you were when i met your assss, you're never going to change and all i ever did was make excuses for you in my head.

i don't give a flying fuck how drunk you are, don't ever disrespect me like i'm trash and nothing to you.
i am giving life to your child, do you deserve him or her? NO!
when i tell you to get a job, i get excuse after excuse, i'm tired of lying to people when they ask how me and you are doing.
you treat me like shit, and love me when it's convenient for you.

i can't take it, i don't let you go for the simple fact that your my child's father, but now i'm not going to hold on to that as an excuse for myself.
so fuck you.

clean up your act, or me and your baby are GONE.