amused.

i am. AMUSED. i am.



i find it hilarious that the people who proclaim themselves as the realest are the one's holding the gavel in this court room. the only one who has that right is GOD, and not one person on this earth is even close to being him. so keep it coming hypocrites and perasites.

i'm an adult, and yet i feel like a child again. just because daddy is pulling his old stunts. walking away from us as always, leaving us in a deeper whole than what we were already in. and for what now daddy? is it a female? you want to come home drunk on a nightly basis again and again? oh wait no, another 16 year old? no no not that, um world of war craft? shooot, it's not that, ohh yeah you would like to do all of the above without anyone telling you what to do because you're grown. ohh no wait, my bad let me rephrase that...you're a MAN.
i don't think so, i could still see it in your eyes since the moment you came back, you never changed, you're inner demons remained they were never tamed.
you've disgusted me since i was a child, i never wanted to call you father.
this isn't the first or second or third time this has happened.
like you said earlier today "i've walked out on you guys before and i'll do it again"
pathetic. just like your twin brother. and your family.
i was cursed with the unfortunate pleasure of being related to your family, if i should even call them that.
some of the worst people i've ever got the opportunity in knowing.
they are going to welcome you with open arms, and be so happy that your life is falling apart.
they've always hated my mom. they've always hated us.
go live you're life. you selfish bastard you.



for this reason is exactly why i find people who judge more pathetic than my father.
you don't know what's going on in my life, what i have to deal with everyday, what i go through, what i went through, what i've seen, who i am, anything.
and yet you have the audacity to talk down on me.
you call it a low blow, i call it a malicious excuse for a soul.

i can say mean things back, or keep on fighting, or stoop down to your level...but that's exactly what i won't do.
i have a life, a heart, and a wonderful family. (Juarez family)
and i don't need some maggit trying to bring me down when i'm just rising up.
sure my life is on pause for the moment, but this is just your demise my rise.

God is on my side, and he will seek revenge.
karma is no joke, and neither is GOD!