once again,

you let someone's words relfect your thoughts about me.
and who could be this wonderful person?
your MOTHER!




because of something she thinks i'm going to do, causes you to be a douche to me, and you accuse me of something that hasn't even happened.
i just hate how your such a good fortune teller and you can see the future and everything!
where on earth did you get these magical powers from?


YES I'M BEING SARCASTIC!


ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
things were just fine, i actually missed you, i really did.
but this just brings me back to why i never do miss you in the first place.
i'm sorry as harsh as that may sound, it's true.
i don't miss you when you're always trying to fight with me, i swear arguing is something you LOVE doing.
because that's all we ever do, because of you and something you disagree with, or something you foresee.
like, look at most of the things i write, yeah they're mostly about you, but what about you? negative? positive? loving? hating? what?

heart breaking.
actually.

like sunday, the day of the tamale festival, because i didn't want to go to your house and have sex with you, you hated me, you were so mean to me, you said the most horrible things to me, you wanted to break up with me.
and we're back.
back to the same spot we've always been at, or the same spot we always end up at.
the big fight that ends with the break up OR the promise on how you're going to change and this time is going to be SOOO different.
when in actuality, we've been in the same spot since the day we found eachother.

a big thankyou to our friends exstacy, coke, and vicodin for causing this maddness!
those chemicals made our brains think we belong together, when i really think we don't.
this is drug love, not real love.
because like you said the other day, when we were always high we were all in "love" and now it's different.
maybe because we landed on planet REALity? now that we're having a baby?
and our chemical roller coaster is over and you don't know how to cope with me, or any other situation.

you know, when we have sex all your anger, frustrations, and meanNESS goes away?
how cute lusty boy.
that is what they call you que no?

and your mother is telling you to tell me to make sure to put you on my welfare checks to help yoU?
and if they don't finacially assist you it's because i'm lying about being with you?
and your mother knows everything because she's having a baby and going through the same situation too right?
NOT!
i've put your name on every paper i signed whenever you were asked about, i'm not some stupid beaner that lies to get free money or more benefits.
i'm not going to lie about being with you.
every place who's assissting me i let them know that i AM with you, and i always will, God will never bless me if i lie Leo.
and once again you think you know me better than i know myself. but you don't know me at all. and i don't mean that in a way that i have secrets because of course that is what your thinking. i mean that in a way that means your whole perception of me is completely negative and WRONG.
you think i'm some money hungry whore, when all i'm doing is trying to get it through your thick skull that yoU are the one who should be providing for me, not the government!
i would never serve you with child support leo. but of course your mother says otherwise, because like you she knows me better than i know myself, and like you she's see's the future...


well i had to vent, before i explode.
all my friends are dead, so here you go interweb.
enjoy the taste of my emotional vomitting...♥