with you,

idk what exactly i got into.

"you should get a tattoo that says warning, that's all just warning, so the potential victim can take a left and safe breath" from the mouth of slug.
and from this heart of mine.


should we really just stay together for the baby? cuz thats exactly what this feels like.
your dragging your feet through this whole thing because you don't want the government to tax your ass.
otherwise you wouldn't be here. and like i told you, if i wasn't pregnant with your baby, i wouldn't be here either.
as harsh as those words are, they're true.
i've never been with someone like you, someone so evil.
where did i go? the girl who was so strong, i had my mind set on everything i would never allow.
and now, that's all gone, and everything i promised myself i would never tolerate...i LIVE with it.
it sucks. it hurts. to see just how pathetic i really am for staying with you.
you stay the same, the whole time, you change for a day or two, or if i'm lucky three, but that's it.
and then it's back to the same ol' you. we're better apart than we are together.
because you're accusations just magnify to they're extent.
everything gets blown out of proportion. but what's new.
i am constantly questioned like a child and you're the adult.
i can honestly say i am the best girlfriend alive. especially out of all of your ex's, you've picked a winner.
but your insecurities or your guilty conscience are going to murder the good in me.
i'm not saying i'm going to cheat on you, because i would never.
but i'm saying, whatever pieces of me are left, you're going to murder with your own bare hands.
and i will have nothing left for my baby girl.
because of you.

i've never loved anyone more than i love you, and yet i've never been with someone so opposite.
you don't see what you do to me.
your blind.
idk what to call what you feel for me.
i'm not sure if it's all a lie, or i'm just someone you've mistaken for lust.
because no matter what i'm never good enough.
from my looks, to my size, to my cooking, to my love for you, anything and everything about me is never good enough.
because i owe you so much. like you told me yourself "maybe you shouldn't have opened your damn legs to me then" ouch. that one hurt.
i'm sorry i'm such a burden, and like you said, "my life was so good, so perfect before all this shit happened."
well Leo, i'm not the type to ever forget such wonderful words like these.

i just wish one day you could see all that i see. i've gave up my life to be with you. i sacraficed my once upon a time relationships with people just to keep you happy, i left my family just to be with you, i'm giving up my future and dreams just to birth your child.
she could've been aborted, but apparantly i guess i have a soul. now.

i would be worried if i were you, because whatever good is left in me is going straight to my baby girl.
she deserves it. not you.

as much as i love you, i'd rather be alone.

may God give me the strength to finally leave you.
please.