tonight

so its about 2 am and no call no show from Leo.
its payday and hes gone just like old times, while i'm here at home collecting endless thoughts waiting for his arrival.

my stomach is in knots.
i feel nasty.
his income is my only source of income and knowing him by the morning there will be none left.
being treated like shit for what?
to be your female slave just because you have a job?
i'm pregnant once again about 18 weeks now, i don't want to have the baby but i have no choice.

if there is a god he'll take he or she away back to heavan.
if they are born they'll be going through hell with me.
lord only knows i've been so unhappy for so long.
putting up with a pile of shit.