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ALL of my social networks.
Social media makes me instantly revert to my old flesh.

Something I read, something I look into, someone from my past talks to me, or just the negativity it brings period just irks me and allows me to get back into my flesh.
Mostly of anger and frustration and just plainly wanting to shooot everyone.
The hypocritical and fakeness the oozes out of people is what I can't stand.
Do not profess your faith, and preach to the world WHEN YOU LOOK JUST LIKE THE WORLD.
Behind a screen it's so easy to play the big ol' Christian when in reality having a conversation with you is nothing like the Godly man you claim to be.

And it's not like people mess up and dust themselves off and try and do better.
These people live, and bathe in their sins and mistakes with no intention on changing their ways other than claiming  to do so on the internet.
I can't stand it.
And it's all I see.

I trust no one, not even the people who profess Jesus as thier Lord and Savior.
I'm going off of your fruit.
I'll believe you once I see you're fruit.
Cause as of now, all of the people I've encountered, EVERY SINGLE ONE is a fake.
And they grow nothing but rotten fruit.

So until I learn through God and am able to cope in a loving way I just need to steer clear from these people and especially exposing myself to such people.
I don't have love for people, so technically in Gods eyes I have nothing.
So if I want to be fruitful myself and grow in God and in love, I must go to these drastic measures.
I need to pull myself out of the mud and dive into God completely 100% whole heartedly.

I'm having a major heart-check and God is going to renew my mind.
It's for the better of my eternity.
I don't serve myself anymore.
Whatever God asks of me, I must do without question.
Whether or not I feel that I'm losing something, if you love me you'll understand why I have to do what I'm doing.