I don't know

one single female, moreover one single mother my age doing what I'm doing without complaining.
I have the weight of the world on my shoulder along with two lives to impact, raise, feed, shelter, love, and everything above.
I'm a nurse, a parent, a teacher, a lover, everything I can be to my daughters I am.
I don't ever let them see me cry nor do I let anyone else.

Today has been a really bad day, and I just want to lay in bed and cry.
From the songs that decide to come on, to the attitude I was getting from recievers, to people cutting me off and not using their blinkers causing me to almost crash, and lastly to being informed that my car is not going to be ready until this weekend now.
I'm not even going to go into details about my car.
I just want to behead myself right now along or drown my sorrows in a bottle of jagar or a stank Four Loko.
But I'm not, but I want to, but I'm not.
My heart is pounding out of my chest and I can honestly feel hatred brewing.
I just got so angry earlier to the point that I wanted to fight someone like legit fight someone.
And then all kinds of peoples faces started popping in my head of who exactly I wanted to hurt.
Which were the people who hurt me most,  and I think that's has a lot to do with how I'm feeling right now.

I don't know how these people can rome freely, carelessly taking what they took from me, doing what they did to me, and hurting me and my daughters the way that they did.
I guess I just want to see them in pain and agony the way that I've been in.


Idk today is just not a good day.



Can God come for his people today please?