He wants me...

To move with him out of town, and he wants us to start over new.
With my girls and everything.
He said he doesn't want me to talk to anyone, not even my family when we move.
He wants a really private life with just us.
He said he doesn't want me to support him, he wants to support me, and if not then be able to help me.
He wants us to have a baby, once we have a home and be able to get everything for him/her.
He wants to get away from the life he's living and settle down with me.
He said, I'm the realest female he knows, and I'm the best he's ever had.
He asked me to do something for him, and it wasn't like 'can you get me a drink'...it's was more the scene in Good Fellas where he asked Karen to hide the bloody gun.
Yeah it was that kind of moment.
I was his Karen.

I was telling him I'm planning on getting a new phone and getting rid of my iphone.
He said he'll buy me my new phone and he'll buy my iphone off me.
So basically he's just giving me money.
This is the first guy to ever GIVE me something rather than take.
This is the first guy who has EVER OFFERED ANYTHING to me in anyway, that wasn't going to benefit him but me.
I got a weird feeling inside when he gave me that offer, like WHAT THE FUCK PLANET AM I ON?!
(I'm so used to giving and never getting anything...ever).
He said he was serious about everything he was saying, so he asked "how do I have to prove it to you".
Then I sat on top of him, looked him in his elevated eyes as he started at mine and said, "Fuck me like you're telling the truth".

And he did, and while he fucked me he talked dirty but while we looked each other in the eyes he proceeded to discuss our future plans.
I'm telling you like I've yet to tell him, I will ride for him, with him, and on him until it's game over.
It any and every way that he wants.



Four years later and you keep laying in the same bed, you're the one that's never left...