Apparently

Marriage isn't for us.

I'm not the one, he doesn't look at me and know that he loves me.

I'm just what's happening now.

Back to square one.

With all the guys who just fucked me over and over, but they just didn't see us going any further.

They ha feelings for me at a point, but just not now.

Maybe later but not now.

Same shit just in a different age in life.