Tony

Took advantage of me in every way possible. 

He used and abused me in every sense of that saying.

From money, to sex, to emotionally, to my apartment, to my heart, and my daughters.

He didn't add to my life or bring anything positive in my life.

If anything all he did was take take take.

That's what selfish/heartless people do.

He seen a young, single, vulnerable mother doing the damn thing...so who the better suitor for such intentions as his?

I had my own place, my own car, my job,    and I was going to school!

And most of all the girl who had all that was the only girl to break his heart and moreover the only girl who broke him period...aside from his mother.

He destroyed me slowly, it was kind of an art form how he did it.

Using his words to destroy me mentally in every aspect of my life.

His intentions from the jump were for him to seek revenge for what I did to him three years ago.

I'm the only female who has access to his brain and thoughts without even asking, and he knows that and that terrifies him.

Not only that but his mother and I are the only females he can't control.

He always compared me to her and I never understood why until now.

Tony lives for control because all his childhood he never had it.

And now that he realizes that people are weak enough to let him control them he does, and he's intimidated the ones he can't.

I can analyze him all day.

He's weak, he feeds off of his prey in order to survive.

I feed off my struggle in order to survive.

I broke away from his control and that's why he can't stand me.

So he's done and said everything he can to hurt me, spitefully.

Because he's weak, he's a coward just needing to breathe and feel better about his own insecure self by putting others like myself down.

When in reality, doubt and negativity do nothing but lift me up.

They give me that boost to strive to do better.

I don't live to prove mere mortals wrong because who are they?

Who is Tony?

I could be weak minded and throw personal attacks at him but that ain't me. I don't need to pick out the bad things in someone's life to feel better about myself.

I'm confident in myself even on my bad days.

I still pray for him with Eve every night, she'll forget him soon I hope.

I hate hate hate hate hate him for opening that door of relationship with my daughter.

I hate myself more though for letting him get close to her or even meet her.

There's no way on earth he deserved to meet her, he wasn't worthy.

Funny, he promised he wasn't gonna do what Leo did to her and he was always going to be there for her.

YOU DON'T SPEAK SUCH WORDS TO A SINGLE MOTHER WITH A DAUGHTER WHO NEEDS A FATHER!

But look, he left just like Leo.

You're no different, you're a junkie just like Leo.

You and Leo are exactly the same just addicted to different things.

There is a special place in hell for Tony, and i know there is. Thats why he cries about going to hell because I know he sees it in his future. As much as I'd like to take it upon myself to get Tony back for what he did to not only me but my girls...I'm not gonna sweat it, He's gonna be getting raped by the devil and demons for eternity so I ain't trippin' about vengeance. 

Okay I need to go pray these thoughts off of me now...