What is this all about?

I ask myself this on a daily basis.
Wondering why I'm doing what I'm doing?
Why is this happening to me?
Did I do something wrong in my past life?
Why is life similar to a car crash?
Why can't I see ahead?
Why do I have no control of what's happening?
How come no matter how I try to control it I still crash?
Why don't I die instead of living with scars I have to see everyday?
Why can't they just go away?
Why am I still in pain months or even years after the crash?
Does it make me better or worse?
Why am I more cautious on the road?
Why can't I just forget it?
Why can't I pretend like it never happened?
Why does it haunt me and make me drive a little slower?
Will I ever forget the damage caused?
Will it ever stop causing me pain?
Will that ever be something I forget?
Or will it make me appreciate life more?
Will it make me be more observant and less reckless?
Will I be grateful for life after it?
Will I live life to the fullest from then on?
Will I hug my family a little bit tighter because they're still there with me?
Will I appreciate that I get to spend another day with them?
Will it change me for the better?
Will I look back and know that God is the one that gave me another chance?



It can go two ways...
You can die when they leave you, or you can become who you were meant to be?



I need to stop looking at my scars...