it's time

for CHANGE, yupp indeed

i've been thinking more than i should, and i couldn't sleep last night dwelling over what i had wrote in my previous enrty, and i kinda finally seen threw the light if you know what i mean?

well basically, my permate is getting pulled, which means i will no longer be working at forever 21, i mind but i don't mind, it's kind of a weight lifted off my shoulders, i mean i can focus on school now, and my body, and get close to graduating, well now school will be my #1 priority, which is what i want as of now.

i'm proud of my self in a sense, cuz i'm finally gonna be getting back on track
i'm sad yet relieved, i'm sad that i'm leaving, i mean i love most of the people that work there and they're all really great and i'm yet relieved for the fact that the clothing pressure to always dress a certain way is now GONE.
it was quite an experience and i enjoyed it, thankyou.

um, the smoking part of my life ????
well i'll just leave it at that

them vatos?
we'll see what happens

speaking of that, i had a dream last night that i got preggers with a baby girl
=]
great, hahahhaha

and them homies?
well i mean that subject should be left unsaid i guess, i mean things should be getting better, and it is true what shy put in her blogspot, i mean i can't expect her to just know these things i should tell her, but then again it is under my assumption that she is occupied with other things, but i still love the girl to death, and i will work on the fact that she DOES care, the only thing that really buggs me, well not so much the thing but the person, is ashley i don't really understand how she doesn't really care about me. I mean i can understand cuz i don't go to that school and all, but doesn't she ever wonder how i'm doing? what i'm doing? if i'm okay? i guess not, i mean you can't make someone try, it just tears me up inside knowing that she's supposed to be my bestfriend yet she no longer partakes in any part of my life. it's just sad, well the thought of it makes me sad, cuz here i am yet again trying to make this friendship work ya know? i call, i try to hang out, i try to come in some sort of contact with her, and yet she'd rather be consumed with other things, i mean i can't blame her, it's her first time being in LOVE and she doesn't know how to balance, or she chooses no too. Either way, there's not one thing i can do, it's all up to you now ashley cuz i give up...


in the mean time, i will be getting ready to go to the fair





i couldn't be happier, i can't really complain

"Nothing gets you nowhere

But everything gets you somewhere

One pair of shoes is great compared to two feet tryin' to run bare"