my baby...

the first one she's all curled up, and the second one is her tiny liddddo cute fooot.

this was a couple weeks ago, and i go again on the 4th to check up on her.

i feel her kick and squirm like it's nobody's business!

she's starting to move alot and i love every minute of it.

she hasn't really made my tummy pop out yet which kinda makes me sad, for the fact that i just feel fat now.

knowing that there's something living inside of me, is beautiful.

she is the only person who makes me feel pretty.

i'm still so sad that i can't give you everything, but i'll do my best.

every move i make is for you.

i promise.

and whether your daddy will be there or not, i will always be here.

i don't need anyone by my side, as long as i have you.

i love your daddy, he just needs to grow up.

he's still in the picture, but i can't run in circles with him forever.

one day it'll all be over.

i can feel it in my bones.

me and him weren't meant to be, maybe we just put together to make you.

i'm not sure, who knows what if he turns to everything i want and need and so much more?

but i'm not going to rely on that simple assumption.

i'm almost 6 months...and he has yet to get a job.

we'll just wait and see what happens, but waiting is only going to last so long...